无法自拔*

Li Sheng Jie once sang :

你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

wu fa zi ba - when we like something or someone SO SO much, somewhat addicted to it, and it's probably not good for us, but yet we still want it... in the end, it still won't and never will belong to us.

this week has been one of the most tiring weeks i've ever gone thru - been OT-ing every single day till 8 pm, which means i have been working 12 hours everyday! whoa! A new feat! *pats myself in the back*

joanna left for UKM this morn.. *sadz* this only spells 1 thing - i have 1 friend less in this lil island i call home. everyone IS leaving! or left! either way, they're not here.
but still, joanna n i had some crazy moments las nite. went over to chu's hse at gold coast after dinner with pek fuen n hooi mei... whoa i tell u.. this place, gold coast, IS LIKE A HOTEL ! they haf 2 swimming pools, with slides, reflexology path, gymnastic things, koi ponds, playground. some childhood-ish feelings came thru me as i went down d slides at d playground! haha n yeah we borrowed chu's inflatable "white-water raft" and played at the kiddies' pool.. though joanna DIDNT DARE go into it.. if she wasnt gonna leave for UKM, we'd totally slumbered there n play summore in the morn!! =)

counting down the days where i hop onto the plane : 66 ! OMG !
this reminds me, i kinda really wanted to be a pilot earlier.. though I dint even get called by SIA. tsk tsk. the euphoria of flying a plane will be really ecstatic! ok, i admit, i was really inspired or rather influenced by that tvb drama, chong shang yun xiao. that guy, isaac is so good looking! lol!

speaking of which, i just made a new fren.. esmond. he's gonna be my classmate, ok, senior.. am really thankful to know him cos he told me lotsa useful stuffs n he's a singaporean! u noe how gila i am of singaporean dramas.. EDMUND CHEN!!!! -huang biren, chen hanwei, fann wenfang, li ming shun, julian hee- ahh, just too many to specify. ok d point is, now that i haf a singaporean friend, there's a lil possibility that i'll get to tour Singapore and maybe visit the Mediacorp Studios?!? Syok!
and then, there's this show at 7 pm now, Women of Times... i'm not sure if d theme is about man finding other women outside, playing n the wife will still forgive d ol' fellow.. it's stoopid la! man do once, man will do twice! tsk tsk. but somehow, i dunno y, i owez side the third party in dramas. amanda will noe this for sure..hahaha

i so cant wait to get back to my study life.
= love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.