so i was sick, n still am, though i hate to be cos it sucks. my whole system feels all crappy n its such an indescribable feeling that when nikita asked - how do i feel - i gave her a one word answer - complicated -
it all started off with some minor purging on noon friday after my Service Learning electives (damn i was suffering in there k!) luckily Quinn's Sch Of Business is right beside Merville so i managed to get home n .. ok, lets not get into details.
then on Sat night, everything just went downhill. i shivered, no, i shook.. yes, shook - like a drug addict (at least thats how i portray them to be when they're high) over the night so i got up n took a paracetamol n texted Grace at about 5am to briefly let her know that i'm not really feeling well. i couldnt even hold my cell properly...
Sunday morn was a huge blur, i couldnt stand, couldnt even sit up, my head was spinning n i just didnt haf d balance so i slept through the whole day. at the same time, my sinus is just getting really bad i can hardly breathe already.. n cos its this bad naughty viral sinus, it got to my head, forehead, wherever it can go n caused a huge pain there.. so besides waking up for medicine i did nothing else. oh, n christine cooked some porridge for me, with mushrooms, carrots, scallops n some either chicken or pork i haf no clue of.
Monday was equally bad. this time i only survived on biscuits n milk Grace brought over.. n i thought i was feeling slightly better in the evening, i cooked my seafood noodles but never even ate half of the whole packet. by then, i was also sick of sleeping, so i started watching some tvb drama called The Ultimate Crime Fighter which only made me feel worse because they had so many ppl dying in the first 4 episodes. now thats not exactly one of the best things to watch when u're so under the weather..
Tuesday came.. it was raining. i told myself no matter what i need to brave myself n walk to the health centre some 30 minutes of baby steps away. thought of attending my one single class of the day at 11 but decided against it in d last minute n boy, it was a damn good decision. at 11.30, i puked big time. i only had a slice of bread n milk, so guess what came out. thank goodness i got ready my lifesaver my pail in my room since the last few days cos that - complicated - feeling i've got is just damn bothering! go away! anyway, i thought i was the hero after puking so i washed up the pail n cleaned it, put on 3 layers of clothes excluding my bra (cos according to some people bras account for 1 layer, omglah!), hoodie and another layer of jacket n set out to the health centre with my red umbrella. i swear the weather had to be extra windy that day. anyway, by the time i was 3/4 there, the - i wanna faint - feeling came. Met a groupmate on the way and while talking like few words to her, i could almost feel myself swaying sideways, front ways, backways so i said goodbye n continued taking my baby steps. n when i finaaaalllyyy reached the student centre i just reached for the nearest chair. my pulse was racing, my head was spinning, my forehead was burning but my limbs were shivering ... i reached for my phone. *Christine, where are you? i'm in student centre now. come quick i think i'm gonna faint soon* before i knew it, there were like 5 ppl around me already - i think Tegpal, Ajay, Peng Wei, Sue a 3rd year, Charles a 2nd year and i cant remember who else - and there was me holdin onto my other lifesaver my Reads plastic bag.
so before i create more drama where theres so many ppl around, christine n Sue brought me up to the health centre where i freaking waited for a doctor for TWO freaking hours! now i understand why people tell me Irish healthcare system is not one of the best. n yup, i puked again there, practically nothing much came out cos i nvr drank nor ate anything, just sips of water. n then went for the check up. Dr Sandra said its viral sinus, something like that thats causing this whole episode and while checking me discovered some ectopic heart beats so she suggested me to go for an ECG at St Vincents Uni Hosp (SVUH - i think its one of the best hospitals in Dublin) when i'm better.
Let me go off the topic a while... Last Friday afternoon after Service Learning n after my toilet experience i ran all d way back to Health Science for my ECG practical with Dr Stuart Bund, hence i can proudly say i now know how to operate an ECG machine. in this practical, our male groupmate was the subject and we're supposed to place the round things with gel on his chest. Dr Bund here actually made a remark that made me realise something. He said "common, u guys are gonna be doctors. surely u haf to get used to touching a human's body?" and it hit me!! how come i can touch a cadaver's body so well, feel it, play with the skin, the everything but yet, ALL of us find it so hard to be the first to touch Conor's chest to feel for his fourth thoracic n so on? i mean common, its Conor-lah! Alive, warm and breathing.. wif loads of chest bulu summore!
i actually need to rest now. the real drama begins after this. to be continued.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
Petition
Please post this on your blog now to help:
Chung Lern and Nian Ning’s families would like all families and friends of the victims, dead or alive, in the Slim River Bus Crash to come forward and join them in taking action against the bus company. Stand up to seek justice for these three innocent individuals, who were all so young and full of life.
If you have a blog, please call out to ANYONE who knows someone who survived or did not survive the crash to come forward to join the Lee family.
Make a huge difference, make a huge fuss.
For now, you may contact Lee Chung Lern at chunglern@gmail.com or preferably on his handphone at 012-6670368.
To Nian Ning, u'll be missed. Rest in peace..
Chung Lern and Nian Ning’s families would like all families and friends of the victims, dead or alive, in the Slim River Bus Crash to come forward and join them in taking action against the bus company. Stand up to seek justice for these three innocent individuals, who were all so young and full of life.
If you have a blog, please call out to ANYONE who knows someone who survived or did not survive the crash to come forward to join the Lee family.
Make a huge difference, make a huge fuss.
For now, you may contact Lee Chung Lern at chunglern@gmail.com or preferably on his handphone at 012-6670368.
To Nian Ning, u'll be missed. Rest in peace..
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Better Days
After a wholesome meal of chicken ciabata, peppered fries and hot chocolate, she walked across the student centre n off to the health science building with a friend. A friend whose name she doesnt even know of. how weird. but of course, of the 200 odd people in her class, its no wonder she doesnt remember her classmates' names after a whole semester - for the reasons of one, they all look alike, two, she just couldnt really be bothered, except the panas ones ..
As she stepped into the cold room, changed into her lab coat and ready, she scanned the room. She was early.. Only a few other classmates were there, and only one moderator. Hrmm.. prossection.. Easy pissy! No need for dissection kit, no need for anatomy book. So as she looked around the room, her hopes werent too high, she knew exactly what she was looking for but it is after all a new sem, so maybe a new set of moderators? The crowd started pouring in, more students, more moderators.
So she took a place right at a spot so familiar, and sniffed an altogether familiar smell.. she looked down at the wrapped object and observed the size of it - the dimensions. Yup! Should be Mr Old Guy alright... No one else should be as big built as he was. And looked up to see 2 moderators standing right in front of her. No Mikey.. Her heart sank a lil deeper..
Moderator 1, the chief of moderators was a rather young and handsome guy. He looks big and strong, the macho kinda guy. He was telling Mod 2 which table to go, and suddenly, she heard,
Mod1 *theres Mikey coming in!*
J's ears *auricles flop open! Oooo??*
Mod1 *Alright, u can take d 2 tables at the back*
J's eyes *heart, wait... i'll scan the room first, just to make sure!*
J's heart *better be him...*
J's eyes *Oh shit! OMG its him!!!*
J's lips *awww... yum yum chui siu*
somewhere, the girl's friend walked into the cold room and stood by her side..
Emily *From far also can see ur face smile till like dunno what nie.. Dunit ask aso noe whats happening!*
J's lips *that obvious??*
J's left ventricle *stress........ do u actually need to pump that hard? take care of dear aorta, children*
J's brain *pls!pls!pls! come to my table! pls!*
Incidentally, Mikey walked over to her table to meet Mod1. And at that very moment when Mod1 pointed another table to Mikey, her heart just, dropped, skipped a beat, flustered, burnt. But wait, Mikey didnt budge.. oh no..
Mikey *i dont really see any familiar faces. how come i dont remember?*
Mod1 *maybe u can take those groups.. (points some few metres away)*
Mikey's eyes *i'm looking at you, yes, YOU*
Mikey *have i taken u guys before?*
J's mouth *YES!, YOU're with US!*
Mikey *oh yeah, i definitely remember you.*
J's lips *=D*
J's reflex part of the brain *of cos, look who's working overtime here each day u step into this cold room? who's the one who was sacrificed to impress a real surgeon? not Dr Burke, not McDreamy, its Dr Mikey we're talking about here!*
Mikey *ok, i'll take you guys... Anyone's got a dissection kit? Anatomy book?*
oh uh! Thought it was a prossection. As it happens, it wasnt a prossection, it was a dissection! Mikey pointed to the girl to start trying to take out the whole heart of Mr. Old Guy. Thank her lucky stars, another groupmate had brought hers along. phew. it was THE best dissection for her, mainly because she dissected the heart, took it out, and went through it all smoothly with her other irish groupmates. it was THE heart. and moreover she had somewhere around a 3 minute chat with Mikey and Mikey alone after the class and discovered more of him than any of her other comrades would..
It wasnt anything. It was just one of her better days.
As she stepped into the cold room, changed into her lab coat and ready, she scanned the room. She was early.. Only a few other classmates were there, and only one moderator. Hrmm.. prossection.. Easy pissy! No need for dissection kit, no need for anatomy book. So as she looked around the room, her hopes werent too high, she knew exactly what she was looking for but it is after all a new sem, so maybe a new set of moderators? The crowd started pouring in, more students, more moderators.
So she took a place right at a spot so familiar, and sniffed an altogether familiar smell.. she looked down at the wrapped object and observed the size of it - the dimensions. Yup! Should be Mr Old Guy alright... No one else should be as big built as he was. And looked up to see 2 moderators standing right in front of her. No Mikey.. Her heart sank a lil deeper..
Moderator 1, the chief of moderators was a rather young and handsome guy. He looks big and strong, the macho kinda guy. He was telling Mod 2 which table to go, and suddenly, she heard,
Mod1 *theres Mikey coming in!*
J's ears *auricles flop open! Oooo??*
Mod1 *Alright, u can take d 2 tables at the back*
J's eyes *heart, wait... i'll scan the room first, just to make sure!*
J's heart *better be him...*
J's eyes *Oh shit! OMG its him!!!*
J's lips *awww... yum yum chui siu*
somewhere, the girl's friend walked into the cold room and stood by her side..
Emily *From far also can see ur face smile till like dunno what nie.. Dunit ask aso noe whats happening!*
J's lips *that obvious??*
J's left ventricle *stress........ do u actually need to pump that hard? take care of dear aorta, children*
J's brain *pls!pls!pls! come to my table! pls!*
Incidentally, Mikey walked over to her table to meet Mod1. And at that very moment when Mod1 pointed another table to Mikey, her heart just, dropped, skipped a beat, flustered, burnt. But wait, Mikey didnt budge.. oh no..
Mikey *i dont really see any familiar faces. how come i dont remember?*
Mod1 *maybe u can take those groups.. (points some few metres away)*
Mikey's eyes *i'm looking at you, yes, YOU*
Mikey *have i taken u guys before?*
J's mouth *YES!, YOU're with US!*
Mikey *oh yeah, i definitely remember you.*
J's lips *=D*
J's reflex part of the brain *of cos, look who's working overtime here each day u step into this cold room? who's the one who was sacrificed to impress a real surgeon? not Dr Burke, not McDreamy, its Dr Mikey we're talking about here!*
Mikey *ok, i'll take you guys... Anyone's got a dissection kit? Anatomy book?*
oh uh! Thought it was a prossection. As it happens, it wasnt a prossection, it was a dissection! Mikey pointed to the girl to start trying to take out the whole heart of Mr. Old Guy. Thank her lucky stars, another groupmate had brought hers along. phew. it was THE best dissection for her, mainly because she dissected the heart, took it out, and went through it all smoothly with her other irish groupmates. it was THE heart. and moreover she had somewhere around a 3 minute chat with Mikey and Mikey alone after the class and discovered more of him than any of her other comrades would..
It wasnt anything. It was just one of her better days.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
of dreams n reality
Kahlil Gibran once wrote,
"To understand the heart and mind of a person, look not at what he has already achieved, but at what he aspires to do"
looking back at the previous post that i was tagged, there was a question - If u can have 2 dreams to come true, what would it be?
n i answered one of them as to being able to fly an aeroplane.. tonite, i suddenly thought of another, one that i haf been dreaming of in a long long time, but pushed to the back of my head ...
"To understand the heart and mind of a person, look not at what he has already achieved, but at what he aspires to do"
looking back at the previous post that i was tagged, there was a question - If u can have 2 dreams to come true, what would it be?
n i answered one of them as to being able to fly an aeroplane.. tonite, i suddenly thought of another, one that i haf been dreaming of in a long long time, but pushed to the back of my head ...
i dream, i can travel the world.
mum, i promised i'll bring u for holidays.
so i'll wait.
Yesterday is but today's memory, tomorrow is today's dream.
so many here have travelled to so many places - all shown in their albums in FB.. spain, paris, belgium, rome, venice, milan, london, austria, prague, vienna n the list goes on.. from past experiences, i find that while travelling, it is so highly important that we go with the right people, people who so happen has the same frequency of thoughts as ourselves.. and while i'm here in europe, of cos, it is everyone of us here's dream to travel to as many places as we can, to open our eyes n hearts to the world.. but to me, as for now, i'll only travel to limited places, cos ...
mum, i promised i'll bring u for holidays.
so i'll wait.
Yesterday is but today's memory, tomorrow is today's dream.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
no wonder
looking back at some of my blog posts, its no wonder i never managed to lose weight here ... i either keep talking bout food, drooling over them then make them myself or travel to eat them ... tsk tsk.
- sleep til u're hungry, eat til u're sleepy
- part of the secret of success in life is to eat what you like and let the food fight it out inside
- food is our common ground; a universal experience
- sleep til u're hungry, eat til u're sleepy
- part of the secret of success in life is to eat what you like and let the food fight it out inside
- food is our common ground; a universal experience
drooooooooooooooooooooling
over ......
DIM SUM !
tonite, i'm having cravings for dim sum! i think people who dunno me might actually think i'm a craving-y, whole-day-thinking-bout-food pregnant lady!! but seriously, when u're at a place where good food was so abundant n then u move to someplace where its even difficult to find a shop selling dim sum on pushcarts, u become the pregnant craving-y lady...
so, where oh where in dublin are there any dim sum restaurants whipping up salivating steaming hot dim sum ? n ON ppushcarts mind u, not those deep fried prawn rolls or sesame balls...
har kau, chai tau kueh, siu mai, phitan choke, prawn chee cheong fun
*closes my eyes n imagines the taste of them, the succulent fresh prawns in the har kau, dipped in chili sauce, the phitan choke - hot from the pot, with deep fried ginger at the top with the right amount of phitan, chai tau kueh - crispy on the outside soft n smooth on the inside; slurp, ahhh .. heaven...*
oh gosh!
grr.. grr... stomach got sound already!
XIAO LONG BAO
this was an adventurous outing at 5 am - before sunrise.
Monday, January 14, 2008
Kena tagged ...
just ended my marathon drama watching streak of 30 episodes of TVB's On The First Beat which is actually the part2 sequel to The Academy. i still remember i bought the academy dvds back home n watched it. thought it was rather boring cos those police cadets were always n i mean ALWAYS marching n there wasnt much action. n true to the tvb tradition, u just hafta shed some tear in most dramas dont u? i did, in the academy. i thought this sequel would be different.. but damn. its d same old thing.. last episode, someone has to die! they make u fall in love with the character, know him/her inside out, make him/her fall in love with the hero/heroin of the show, then comes the 'yau yuin mo fan' part, then they got together n broke up, n when they finally realise they were meant to be together, BHAAM ! fcuk! she just has to die doesnt she? ishk! anyway, i think hollywood should learn a thing or two from their TVB peeps. if its anything to go by, most part 2 TVB dramas are comparatively better that their part 1s.
So here goes the tagging -
Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it total 20 questions, then tag to 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.
You must link to the one who tag you, then spread it to 8 people, let the game go on, return the tag to sender is prohibited.
1.What is your dream when during your childhood?
there was once i wanted to be an engineer (cant believe i ever thought of that!! eww, hate physics!) and then it is what i am pursuing now medicine, n somewhere in my teens i wanted to be an aeroplane pilot (i'm still keeping my dream that i'll personally fly a plane someday)
2.You like rainy day or sunny day? Why?
definitely sunny! it totally makes my day when i wake up in the morning n see the sun shining brightly..
3.Which colour you like most? Black or White?
i like both, i cant choose. depends on the situation lah. eg. wearing clothes, it gives that optical illusion.. ;)
4.Who would I marry to?
i would be great if i noe the answer to this question. it would save me so much hassle of opening my eyes n look for this fella who's probably never gonna come.. *choi!* ah, maybe he's Lucas Scott... hrmmm *mind wanders off to ....*
5.Where is the place you wanted to go most? Why?
For now i think its home.
otherwise, guess Venice or Paris would be nice. provided the company is great too. seems like a nice place... wanna rest n relax n tour the whole of the cotswold hills in England too..
6.Which part of you that you love the most?
my brains...
7.When you encounter a sad moment, what would you do?
just dont think about it and go to sleep. maybe retail therapy too.. =)
8.What do you scare to loss most?
family and close friends
9.If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? Or just keep secret in heart, observing by yourself?
i know its stupid but i'm still a very conservative kinda person.. i'll just keep it in my heart n hope for the guy to maybe notice. so far, it never worked n i have lost many many chances..
10.List out 3 good points of the one who tag you.
in my opinion i see Wei Jiat as -
a person who knows what he wants in life n goes for it,
helpful,
conscientious.
11.What are the requirements that you wish for your another half?
first impression always counts so he has to have a good decent look, 'subun', 'sai sum', stable, can communicate well with me, hopefully an engineer kinda person who can build his own company n become a successful CEO of it.
12.Till now, what is the moment that you regret most?
None.
13.Which type of person you hate most?
- people who look down on me or d ppl i care (if u cant be better than me just shut up)
- people who make promises but never keep them (hates the disappointed feeling)
- people who take advantage of others
14.What is your ambition?
i have many ambitions but i dont feel like publishing them here openly.
15.Would you rather be someone else at this very moment?
Nope. I'm happy as I am, i just need to improve in certain things.
16.If you can have 2 dreams to come true, what would it be?
To fly an aeroplane.
I have another but i dun feel like saying it here either.
17.What do you think that is most important in your life?
The people around me and my studies now, soon to be a career.
18.Who's your favourite cartoon character?
Superman. no other. altho superman's a comic character but never mind lah!
19.What will you do if the world ends tomorrow?
i still haf a million and one things to do and experience... will do watever it takes to live.
but if i haf to think of any, and since everyone is gonna go together, nah, i really cant imagine what i'll do. cant think of any. maybe hug everyone i know n tell them how much i love them.
20. The most worthwhile decision you've ever made in your life so far?
to become a doctor.
tag :
charmine
bernice
tongtong
jeffrey lee
ejian
ajay
yinye
yiping
So here goes the tagging -
Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it total 20 questions, then tag to 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.
You must link to the one who tag you, then spread it to 8 people, let the game go on, return the tag to sender is prohibited.
1.What is your dream when during your childhood?
there was once i wanted to be an engineer (cant believe i ever thought of that!! eww, hate physics!) and then it is what i am pursuing now medicine, n somewhere in my teens i wanted to be an aeroplane pilot (i'm still keeping my dream that i'll personally fly a plane someday)
2.You like rainy day or sunny day? Why?
definitely sunny! it totally makes my day when i wake up in the morning n see the sun shining brightly..
3.Which colour you like most? Black or White?
i like both, i cant choose. depends on the situation lah. eg. wearing clothes, it gives that optical illusion.. ;)
4.Who would I marry to?
i would be great if i noe the answer to this question. it would save me so much hassle of opening my eyes n look for this fella who's probably never gonna come.. *choi!* ah, maybe he's Lucas Scott... hrmmm *mind wanders off to ....*
5.Where is the place you wanted to go most? Why?
For now i think its home.
otherwise, guess Venice or Paris would be nice. provided the company is great too. seems like a nice place... wanna rest n relax n tour the whole of the cotswold hills in England too..
6.Which part of you that you love the most?
my brains...
7.When you encounter a sad moment, what would you do?
just dont think about it and go to sleep. maybe retail therapy too.. =)
8.What do you scare to loss most?
family and close friends
9.If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? Or just keep secret in heart, observing by yourself?
i know its stupid but i'm still a very conservative kinda person.. i'll just keep it in my heart n hope for the guy to maybe notice. so far, it never worked n i have lost many many chances..
10.List out 3 good points of the one who tag you.
in my opinion i see Wei Jiat as -
a person who knows what he wants in life n goes for it,
helpful,
conscientious.
11.What are the requirements that you wish for your another half?
first impression always counts so he has to have a good decent look, 'subun', 'sai sum', stable, can communicate well with me, hopefully an engineer kinda person who can build his own company n become a successful CEO of it.
12.Till now, what is the moment that you regret most?
None.
13.Which type of person you hate most?
- people who look down on me or d ppl i care (if u cant be better than me just shut up)
- people who make promises but never keep them (hates the disappointed feeling)
- people who take advantage of others
14.What is your ambition?
i have many ambitions but i dont feel like publishing them here openly.
15.Would you rather be someone else at this very moment?
Nope. I'm happy as I am, i just need to improve in certain things.
16.If you can have 2 dreams to come true, what would it be?
To fly an aeroplane.
I have another but i dun feel like saying it here either.
17.What do you think that is most important in your life?
The people around me and my studies now, soon to be a career.
18.Who's your favourite cartoon character?
Superman. no other. altho superman's a comic character but never mind lah!
19.What will you do if the world ends tomorrow?
i still haf a million and one things to do and experience... will do watever it takes to live.
but if i haf to think of any, and since everyone is gonna go together, nah, i really cant imagine what i'll do. cant think of any. maybe hug everyone i know n tell them how much i love them.
20. The most worthwhile decision you've ever made in your life so far?
to become a doctor.
tag :
charmine
bernice
tongtong
jeffrey lee
ejian
ajay
yinye
yiping
Thursday, January 10, 2008
OTH
-looking for that one perfect pic of tree hill-
i love lucas scott. (but hey, i noe no guys are perfect!)
i love one tree hill.
ONE TREE HILL
My name is Lucas Scott.
Four years ago i graduated from high school with my friends ..
Brooke Davis moved to New York City and found success.
Peyton Sawyer moved to Los Angeles. Success didnt come so easily.
I wrote a novel .. from my editor Lindsey
My brother Nathan saw his dreams vanish, leaving his wife Haley and their son Jamie more fractured than ever.
Things have changed in four years.
But in many ways, this is just the beginning.
James Lucas Scott or Jamie
he's just one of the cutest lil boy ever..
lucas scott is the one kind of guy that i'll totally fall for and the kind i WANT to fall for. but i guess guys like him only appear in movies and novels. fiction character. gosh, i can imagine if he's like my husband n he plays with our lil son like that .. it'll be SO nice.. guys who love children scores extra points..
nathan n haley got off to a rough start in the beginning. guys who are whiny and dwells in the past are terrible!
and of course, this kinda guy is for display. but whatever happened to Chase? I want him back on Tree Hill.. badly....
the day this happens will be the best episode in OTH..
oh it will !
now, if only the person holding the bouquet next to Lucas ..
oh it will !
now, if only the person holding the bouquet next to Lucas ..
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